I feel numb.
At one point, a person can be your whole world. A week, or month, or year later, that person might not be in your life anymore. Sometimes it's because of where you work or live or learn, sometimes its because your relationship changed or ended or one person gave up. Sometimes, the worst times, its because a life has been extinguished, and you lost the chance to say something beautiful to them.
There are countless people I have 'lost'. Some more meaningful than others. I want to spend a moment, remembering them.
Everyone I was friends with at primary school I've completely lost contact with.
Lucy, George, Harriet, Kristy, Celia, Vicky, and in a way, Becky. Some of my closest friends from high school, I wonder where our lives drifted.
Rhianmor, Matt, Coates, Carlo. University faces I haven't seen in years.
Barnaby, Shane, Whall. I wonder what kind of people you've all become.
Sheridan, Phillipa, Alex and Tim. The Rumsey crowd I loved so much.
Henry and Rowan. Lost but never forgotten.
And Sam. I hope this one doesn't fade into nothing, lost in the cracks of the universe.
I will hold on so much tighter; I won't let the people I love disappear from my life without them knowing how much I care.
Even if its me who disappears.